E-Monk's Live Blog

This year I completely lost my faith. It's not because of the job loss or anything else, but because of a realization. This realization is quite strong but has a lot of logic in it: Anything we believe in, unless it has a proof or justification of existence in the real world, is just in our heads. Therefore, we can (and should) choose what to believe in. If you believe that something exists but have no proof for it yet, it becomes an opinion and opinions are definitely in our heads. Religion exists, belief exists, but does god exist? Does any deity exist? It's a matter of belief or opinion. As a matter of fact, religious leaders use this uncertainty to maintain power over those who believe in the existence of god. Had believers known if got exists, they would immediately stop serving their priests and start addressing god directly - which would certainly cause a sharp decline in social status of those who claim to be the messengers of god. The religious establishments (of all m

I will start with my conclusion: unfortunately, I won't remember 2010 as my best year. I lost a job that I liked for reasons that I do not understand and in general it seems to me as if the progress that I was doing has stalled. Maybe I should have worked harder, maybe I should have done things differently. But it happened, and I cannot change it. The only things I can do is to act quickly, find a new path and not to lose hope. And I should keep in my mind that my job does not define me - I just do it for the money. So what I did like this year? I liked traveling and I did so 3 times. Twice abroad to England and Slovenia but I also consider traveling with Eva as some sort of a trip, which happened to be in the country I live in. I liked Massive Attack's "Heligoland" and LCD Soundsystem's "This Is Happening", as well as the Chemical Brothers' "Further", Gorillaz "Plastic Beach" and Arcade Fire's "The Suburbs". The Div